It's really strange to think of myself as an adult. I'm 19 but I still feel like a kid and I still am in some ways. So it feels weird as I sit home watching reruns of Ugly Betty during my winter break realizing that the dreams I had in high school are still in the back of my mind and they're attainable.
I spent all of high school working my behind off in order to make good grades and get into college, which was my short term dream, and I did it. I seized every academic, volunteer, and extracurricular opportunity that I could and I excelled, I was amazing! But now what?
Growing up you witness so many different versions of what the "real world" is like whether you see it on television or hear it from your parents, and it is all so confusing. It's intimidating to be standing at the doorstep of this crazy world, getting ready to ring the doorbell and be pulled into the chaos. I don't know what the world has to offer, I just know what I have to offer to the world; I have goals and dreams that I want to reach but the hard part is putting everything into perspective and not just seeing my goal but how I'm going to reach it.
I guess I'm at a plateau. I see myself achieving everything just like I did in high school but I'm so confused as to how I'm going to get there. No, I'm not trying to do things that are impractical, I'm a dreamer not an idiot. Recently, I've made the mistake of being negative and shooting down my aspirations before I even figure out what I'm doing. I can't do that to myself; just like everyone else I have to be my biggest and peppiest cheerleader.
Being young and ambitions, fresh out of high school and still under the wings of two great parents is a great position to be in. There are people that are twice my age trying to step out and do things their way, I've got time on my side. So in the meantime I'm going to start writing down my short and long term goals and figuring out how I'm going to reach them. I'm going to work as hard as I can and then see what happens; let's face it, I can do everything in my power but in the end its all in God's hands.
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